First full Day - Walking and Working

I'm done. Finished. Spent.
I'm tired of running through the list of excuses that I have for why I am no longer in shape. I turned 40 in February

and I was beyond depressed that I had lost everything related to my fitness - my strength, my weight, my desire to eat right. It was all gone. Since February, I did a big retrospective on why the things I was trying weren't working. So, here it is....my last list of excuses.

• Weight Watchers - no time for meetings, no time for extensive food prep and logging
• Nutritionist - even eating right, with no time for exercise.
• You should exercise in the morning - where I am now, I can barely get up when the alarm goes off at 6:15 for me to get both kids off to school, getting up earlier has not been something I could do in the last few years. I did it 8 years ago - I got up at 5am and met a trainer 3 days a week, worked out 6 days a week. I just physically can not get up at that time anymore.
• You should exercise at night - When? With a select baseball player, softball player, musician and two kids in a academically gifted program with homework nightly, my exercise was never fitting in.
• Exercise felt like a jail sentence - when I did do it, I felt like I was being punished. After a 9-12 hour work day, I missed my family, so to then go spend an hour at the gym, I felt like I was being punished for failed genetics and some lapses in judgment on food choices (for a few years!!) Sure, I loved how I felt AFTER the workout, but during it and before it, I was seething with resentment and obsessively jealous of all of you people who can share that dinner table at Desperados with me, but still remain a healthy weight!
  
• I work all day and I am out of gas at the end of the day. The one or two days on occasion that we don't have to be somewhere, I'm doing house chores or collapsing from pure exhaustion.
  

Whew...I think that is all of them.

So, what am I going to do?
Wednesday, Sept. 28th, 2010, my Sole F80 treadmill arrived. My TrekDesk is on order and should be hear shortly. I'm going to walk all day WHILE I work.
Faith: I really don't know if this is going to work. I have had back pain and leg pain for the last 7 years that, at times, has had me living on pain medications. But I am going to have faith.

• Faith that the good Lord is going to guide me each day to make the right choices.
• Faith that the voice in me is strong. That the part of me that is crying to get out wins out over the part of me that is exhausted and sore and feels like I "deserve" a break.
  
• Faith in my family and friends and coworkers, that they will support me and resist the urge to make fun of my choice.
• Faith in this setup -this treadmill and trekdesk are going be the right physical and ergonomic setup.

Yesterday, Sept. 29th, 2010
I walked for about 3.5 hours at between 0.6 and 1.0. I don't have my TrekDesk yet, so I took my ironing board and rigged it over the bars of the treadmill.

This is definitely not stable, but I am typing like a mad women, doing my conference calls, listening to my itunes connected to the treadmill in between and I walked 3.5 miles and burned about 1000 calories. I can't say for sure, because I forgot to write it all down. So, this morning, I've decided to LOG AND BLOG! I'll let you know how this all goes.